Warning: Crazy!!!

After the last two days, I feel it my responsibility to warn everyone that I'm going to be crazy for an indeterminate amount of time. I saw a fertility specialist this past week and am now on drugs in an attempt to expand our little family. We've been trying for a year (though that may be a surprise to most of you - it's not something I've shared much, as I don't think it's really anyone else's business. If I didn't feel the need to warn everyone I'm going to be crazy, I still wouldn't be telling you.) I'm currently on progesterone because I've only had 2 real periods in the last year (that's how we know I'm the one who needed to see a fertility doctor) but after that I'll be on clomid for one last final shot at that drug (I've already been on it 2 months with no ovulation at all) before going to something stronger. I've taken 3 of my 5 progesterone pills and they have made me decidedly crazy. For example, yesterday: I hadn't been able to sleep the night before so only had 4 hours of sleep, but was not sleepy at all - hard to concentrate or put things together, but not sleepy. Instead, I went on an emotional roller coaster. I was hyper upon waking up, feeling for the first time the desire to drive the car recklessly fast and weave in and out of traffic. I had to really repress the urge so as not to get us killed. Then I was really weepy and it was all I could do to keep myself from crying hysterically about everything (like Chad telling me one of his patients died.) Seriously - I had to really focus on not hyperventilating and throwing up, much less the water-works! For a while I was really angry about everything and took my frustrations out on finishing assembling the new desk we bought (and on Chad for helping me - sorry!) Then back to hysterical (it's a good thing we skipped out on the Arne's party last night.) Then I was curiously detached, feeling nothing at all. Chad could have told me my mom died and I would have thought "That's too bad." Then I was giddy and silly and hopping all over the place whistling or singing, skipping or just generally bouncing around. Finally around 11, I was starting to get tired and when I fell asleep, I was dead to the world - Sakura was up banging on the door (so says Chad) but I was out of it. All of that in 24 hours! I should be at church right now, but a) I didn't wake up in time and b) have been feeling sick to my stomach since I woke up. I don't think most people react so strongly to progesterone, so I can't even tell you what the clomid or other drugs I might have to take will do. So this is my apology in advance - I'm so sorry! Consider yourself warned.